Laying low and keeping to myself mostly. Lots of fluids. Sometimes people cough when they quit and that hasn’t happened, yet.
Slept really well last night but had to use a space heater, it was so cold. Heatwave?
Going to be a difficult week, because it’s race week. Sailor here from Chicago I’m nice to him, but staying away. Did not cook salmon for him this trip. Too sedated. He’s a former smoker so he understands.
As for me nicotine was a way of self medicating for anxiety and now that I’m addressing anxiety in counseling that may not be an issue anymore.
Taking this so seriously I wrote a note:
My 5 reasons to quit smoking:
- To stay healthy for my family.
- To set a better example for my kids.
- It makes my family happy.
- Feels good to wear clothes that smell nice.
- Fresh Breath.
Once I even brought a pack of cigarettes to Amma asking her if she could help me quit. She held me back like a baby and fed me chocolate. When I sat up she gave me a hug for Darshan and set me off with rose petals, a hershey’s kiss and an apple.
I think she knows I relapsed. But I’m going to keep trying. Certainly I have quit drinking. Next to go is marijuana, actually I don’t smoke very much anymore and the correct meds work much better. Again I think I was self medicating. Finally the underlying issues are healing up. Will continue all follow up visits with treatment care providers. IE: Counseling and Art Therapy and regular med checks for all of next year. A good start.